Christmas Cheer?

First off, i want to apologize that I haven't blogged in forever... I've been really busy, which I know isn't a great excuse, but it's the only one I have! Good news: I found my autographs I lost! Bad News: the headband from Etsy my sister ordered for Christmas for me still hasn't come in and it may not at all... :(*

I feel like such a Scrooge this year... Except for the presents, which I know is very greedy, I'm not even looking forward to tonight or tomorrow... I feel awful because it seems like I've lost the true meaning of Christmas somehow... I've been bossy all day to my sister and I'm in a really bitchy mood... I don't know what's wrong with me, but I wish I knew so I could change it...

On a lighter note, I'm going to take pictures of my presents and post them so everyone can see! I hope everyone out there and all my friends get everything they want.

Tonight, as a family tradition, we're going to read the Christmas story out of the Bible... I know you're thinking, "Jesus Freak" but since it IS the real meaning of Christmas, I hope it will turn me around... I mean, as of right now, i'm on the verge of strongly disliking Christmas... The whole holiday season has borought on a really bad tone and atmosphere... My parents and sibling aren't as excited about Christmas as they usually are... I guess I'm focusing more on recieving and getting stuff than Jesus, giving, and being with family...

Even though this sounds ironic alongside my previous statements, i want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and to remember what it is all about-Jesus. I'm having a hard time keeping in mind the real reason since I've been focusing so much on the commercialism...

Thank you to all my friends for always being there for me... I know who to turn to in rough times... 

I love you all and hope to see you soon! Merry Christmas!