Rekindle

Rekindling relationships with old friends... awkard, but comforting...

My mind is made up- I'm just not able to do this anymore. The life I've been leading isn't who I really am. Who I am hates who I've been for the past few months, and I have to realize that the direction I'm falling in isn't the direction appropriate for me.

This realization has made me more confused than ever, but I'd rather be confused than miserable with myself.

So here I am on my new journey, and I'm already sensing changes. I'm not used to the changes, but it feels good knowing that I don't have to live a lie anymore.

My only fear is the feelings and reactions of others. I mean, I love them, but I just don't know how to tell them what's really going on inside my head and with my life. I just don't think they'd understand where I'm coming from, and I don't want to destroy the relationships I've made, but they have to understand that I'm not living my life along with them anymore.

At this point, I've got to start deciding what's right from what's wrong.
On a lighter note: I cannot find my Ray Bans and I'm having a heart-attack! I think I know where they may be, but it's like an hour away!

I have no idea, like Rebekah, what I'm getting my friends for Christmas- that I have too many to worry about, but that's beside the point.

Tomorrow is our school Christmas dance and I'm dreading it! More updates later!